What a child’s body might be thinking during and after restraint and seclusion

What a child’s body might be thinking:

My teacher is going to hurt me.

My teacher is going to kill me.

I am going to die in front of everyone.

I don’t know what I did wrong, but it must be just as bad as killing someone.

Everyone saw me do it.

Everyone is looking at me.

I must deserve to die.

What if I do it again and don’t even know it?

What if I can’t stop?

My mommy is never going to come for me.

My mommy doesn’t want me anymore.

I’m going to be here all alone forever.

Last year makes me cry and I don’t know why.

Why am I so sad all the time?

What if I don’t have fun this weekend?

What if nothing is ever fun anymore?

I ruin everything.

I am worthless.

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What an adult survivor’s body might be thinking:

I never had my own Rachel, but I do now.

I need to set this free for my own sake.

Then I can set myself aside.

And I can seriously get down to business to help these kids.